As quickly as it began.

Lately I've been doing a lot of things that I've never done before, and with these new experiences come new consequences, and outcomes I've never expected. How these things work still mystifies me, and I'm so lost about how to make something of it. I find myself getting too quickly involved in romantic ventures, I suppose you could say, and it seems that such intensity can only be sustained for so long, and causes a significant deal of stress on the association, as it has not ended quite as well as I'd hoped in most cases... so, there's something to this art, something materializing in the distance that I'm striving to grasp, something others may have become so keen to so long ago...but still something I feel that every person has to find alone. You arrive at the necessary mindset for such a thing not by choice, but by force, you make the decisions you have to make, and you are pawn to them until the paradigm shift. And so it is that I am subservient until I've found a way to make sense of it all.