To-Do List

I decided to make out a list of things for myself to accomplish, preferably in a single day, but most likely to spill over into the next. It exists partially to remind me of the things I need to do, but also to make me feel terrible for the things I neglect. I really need to start feeling like I'm doing something wrong when I let things wither. If these things were plants, they would be turning horrible colors and shrinking, if they were pets, they would whimper and become desolate. I cannot have that. These things are my pets, and I must tend to them. There are responsibilities. I have gotten quite a few check on the list, though, and that does feel nice - written confirmation of goals reached. I like it. I intend to keep it up. I'm doing it right now. Check.

Brain Storm

So, I'm in a strange place right now, I feel.

And I just realized that I don't really want to talk about it.

It will all improve, though. It always does. Things have a way of working out, in the end, and I've got faith in that.

I meant to go biking today...and somehow I completely missed that. I've got to stop using the internet so much, it's eating up my time and I've got next to nothing to show for it.

Time slips through my fingers

So, I've done it again. I let it slide. It whisked while I was lost and spun frantically at sea, trying to find my way. Now I have returned to with my bearings and am scouring the maps for my destination. It's indefinite, amorphous, and fuzzy. It is hard to identify and hard to visualize, and that makes it so much harder to grasp. I need to add to it definition, shape, clarity...only then can I make it my own. So still my path is shrouded, but I shall find the calling and heed it, even though it does require more searching still. Whatever road it is that I end up on, though, I feel that sticking to my commitments is a major part, and as such, I must keep this up, even if I have to trick myself into doing so. So, I set it as my homepage. We'll see if it helps tomorrow.